Thursday, 23rd June '05

The Kind of Morning That Lasts All Afternoon

It's been a ridiculous day. It's been the kind of dumbass day that started the night before, didn't start well, became a whole lot of fun in between, became damn confusing midway, the morning kind of lasted all afternoon, like John Mayer says, and then became absolutely frustrating, and then now I'm just this drained shell sitting here wondered what became of a perfectly good Thursday. Lots of thoughts whirling around at the same time in my head, listed here, sometimes cryptically, for your reading pleasure:

1. A preliminary generally floating above everything else thought: quarterlifecrisis looks dangerously close again. People coming back to Singapore, catching up is in order, time to see the wonderful things other people have done in life, and convince myself all over again that I've done a heck of a lot too and really, I did choose this path in life for me. Enjoy a commercial break song (because I don't think I've actually - amazingly - blogged this song before) now: - by the way, Jer, if you thought "No Such Thing" was good, this is a million times more thoughtful.

Why Georgia
-- John Mayer

I am driving up 85 in the
Kind of morning that lasts all afternoon
Just stuck inside the gloom
4 more exits to my apartment but
I am tempted to keep the car in drive
And leave it all behind

Cause I wonder sometimes
About the outcome
Of a still verdictless life

Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why Georgia, why?

I rent a room and I fill the spaces with
Wood in places to make it feel like home
But all I feel's alone
It might be a quarter life crisis
Or just a stirring in my soul

Either way I wonder sometimes
About the outcome
Of a still verdictless life

Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why Georgia, why?

So what, so I've got a smile on
It's hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
Don't believe me
When I say I've got it down

Everybody is just a stranger but
That's the danger in going my own way
I guess it's the price I have to pay
Still "everything happens for a reason"
Is no reason not to ask myself

If I am living it right
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why Georgia, why?


2. Kai is a cheapskate bugger. I'm sure she's at home and just wants me to call her back for free incoming. I REFUSE.





3. Administrative people are devil spawn. Except for one administrative director who is quite a darling and is pretty understanding of my company's problems.

4. If this idiot boy hurts my friend I will poke his eyes out. I don't care how charming he's going to be about it. Geez. I don't know why I feel so strongly frustrated about this - normally I don't care for other people's relationships, but when the friend getting hurt is this close to me and the other go-block hurting my friend is someone else that has also significantly fast-forwardly barrelled into my life (through no fault of his own) and I was in the midst of assessing exactly what I thought of him... it throws me out of whack to realise what an idiot he could be. Idiot. plain

5. Yay, Ningz and Qiong are the best! blush By this time tomorrow I will have Adobe Photoshop again! And maybe even a proper Mac FTP client! *bounce*. Sometimes I wonder why I bought a powerbook.

6. JnJ have stolen in one night what took me about 3 years to accumulate. Happily chucking my files into their 40GB harddisk, they were. And if they ever tell you they're not hungry, you'll have to buy bak chor mee for them because they will end up eating yours if you don't.





7. I didn't know Kai had THAT much of a phobia of sleeping with Limin. *chuckle*





8. The new blog in town: Rabbisaur's. Damn hot property, these days. Let's just pray no naked pictures ever find their way there.

9. HOW DID I LEAVE THIS PART SO LONG?? I created a photo section for the blog FINALLY. All the links should be working, except for the one's about Ah Ma's birthday. Mich? I need the pics. To elaborate on the credits due: all the Kai's birthday photos were Kai's, as were the East Coast Park shots. Between the devil and the deep blue sea shots were Siti's too.

10. One of the scariest things that can happen to you early in the morning is to wake up, get Shaun busy beating eggs in the kitchen, mix up some pancake batter, and hope to return to your bed for a short snooze... and find this little bogeyman hidden under the covers:





11. Feeling a bit guilty about not going for bible study with Limin last minute. But logistically it would have caused so many problems for about 3 other parties. *sigh*

12. STILL feel like strangling a few administrative people.

13. Oteam chalet! Whee!

14. Thank God Zaini's going to mail me the cast list tonight. Mel: I have a new scheme for catching Zaini in the middle of the day - call Bryan about something rehearsal related. Accidentally on purpose mention something about needing to call Zaini next and hoping he will actually pick up the phone. After which, nice kind Bryan will hopefully go "oh! He's right here! Want to talk to him? ZAAAAAIIIINNNNIIIIIIEEEEE!" - Mission Accomplished.

15. Uploaded stayover photos! Shaun is still... shaun. cool eh?





16. I'm amazed. This pancake turned out pretty chio! (Yes, chioness of the pancake is quite important.) Considering who the chef was (read: not me):





17. The line in a song "it's the least you could not do" is a beautiful line.

18. Just because I haven't put up a picture of Limin yet:





19. OK lah. Qiong is complaining this blog is taking too long. Just want to end off by saying that it was a pretty decent stayover-breakfast and that was the good part of the day. Really wish the rest of the Smubs could have been along. It's been a while since we had a good old-fashioned night with Bert, Heng, Luk, Ben, Gnet all along too. But work and other committments have to be attended to, I guess. So for the guys who missed it *sniffle, I missed you!*, here are some concluding photos:







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en ying snapped a shot of life @ 06:01 pm
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limz:

ehhehe nice pics! i love jer's bad hair and the caption that went with jem under the covers Hhahahah he is a bogeyman indeed.
righty. smile keep updating babe. razz

jem:

tks enz. for the wonderful stayover. n breakfast. smile

qiong:

eh, i didn't complain it was long *haha* in fact, write more leh XD i meant you take DAMN LONG to update *hahahaha*

thanks for that post. damn funny, kept my mind off things ^__^ and i love the front bit, about the quaterlifecrisis and wondering what happened to a perfectly good thursday *lol*

mich:

okay i'll bring the pics tmrw!

your fav strawzb 1:

Enz is DE BEST. i will bring O Cd tomorrow MORNING. i will make it. hehe

en:

[limz] haha... i aim to please.

[jem] u're most welcome bro...

[qiong] oh alright... just for you i will update more... smile but u got to reciprocate and blog more understandably too leh (i.e. en ying doesn't get ur bishonen-talk)

[mich] thanks! what size are ur flash cards anyways? i have a supposedly 23 in 1 card reader, so... hehh.

[kai] evidently you SO made it. *sigh* hands up who DOESN'T consider 2pm a time that is somewhere in the "MORNING".

jerald:

Hey Enz! Send me pictures of the stayover! =)





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